I’m not sure there has ever been a point and time
When I simply accepted my place in life
More specifically, in my relationships.
I don’t think of myself as a conformist,
yet often find myself, more often than not,
being submissive to the desires of others.
Experience has taught me much,
but many lessons have yet to be learned
Frankly, I’m so tired of being
used, abused, and left alone
I’m much too young for this shit.
Oh my God, here he comes!
Is that???
Is that…other… woman…. with… him?
How can he do this to me, yet again?
I thought
I hoped
We’d be together tonight
Alone
Hasn’t he realized that it isn’t any better when he brings another into our relationship?
The whole experience is quite unsatisfying
The last one had no clue what she was doing and he had to overcompensate.
There is no pleasure in having to work that hard!
He even grew impatient and took her home early.
I can’t believe he wants me to share him with this other woman
How could he?
Doesn’t he know I want him all to myself?
God I’m so stupid
Insane
Doing the same thing over and over again
Expecting different results
How can I expect him to be any different from the others?
It’s always the same
They always go the same way
Just because I dance on a velvet stage doesn’t make me feel any less.
He comes around arouses me then has me do the dirty work for him.
I hate to say it but it’s time for me to accept it
I’m an enabler
I enable the comfort zone
I enable this concept of an open relationship.
Why can’t I be steadfast on my boundaries?
Why can’t he just be with me???
As always he continues to overlook me as if I weren’t even here.
Why can’t he just commit to me?
Why can’t I ever find someone who just wants me?
Someone who is completely satisfied by me?
Such commitment issues!
UURRGGGHHH!!!
Wai-wai-wai-wai-waitttt a minute
What am I saying?
I’m not interested in a commitment
What is wrong with me?
I love diversity.
Ooooooooo, but just look at him
I just want to feel his touch.
Hard or soft it doesn’t matter.
Is it so wrong to want to feel his hard stick a
Against me?
Poking me…Playing with me… (sigh)
I just love to watch him
How he gently caresses it
Glides his hands up and down
in such deep concentration.
How he teases me with it
His intent glare.
His strokes grow faster, more assertive
Ohhh…I think he’s ready.
I think he’s coming
He’s coming….
click/thud….
9 ball, left corner pocket…
- Michelle Choate, 2009
